In parallel to my stage life, I began to invest time in my personal growth, partly through voice training and partly through psychotherapy. Through these pursuits, I began to discover my spirit, which led me to meditation, breath work and a whole host of other tools. A whole new world opened up for me.

What I realised was that I had to come to grips with parts of my voice that I didn’t like; with parts that I didn’t know existed; and with parts that needed retraining. Working on my voice unleashed an ocean of pent-up emotions that had been stuck in my emotional body for years. I uncovered so many things from the harshest judgements I had levied upon myself, and how much and in what ways I had self-sabotaged all throughout my life, believing deep down inside that I didn’t have what it takes to be a successful singer. I found myself in classes shouting, crying, throwing temper tantrums and begging for forgiveness. It was truly transformational.

And now, partly thanks to the pandemic, I have come to realize that I have lived a version of a fantasy narrative, complete with dreams and wishes that I, in hindsight, can see were never really my authentic desires. The one thing that has been a constant for so much of my adult life has been working towards true healing and harmony. All I want to do is use my voice to serve humanity, which I identify as my soul’s song of truth. Now I find time to sing every day because I genuinely look forward to it. My day just doesn’t feel complete if I don’t connect to my inner sound.

So, here I am, at peace with my voice, for it is no longer a shouting mechanism to rage at the world but rather, an instrument and conduit for healing with and through harmony. The experience and skills I have collected along the way now form the basis for the methodology I call Transformative Voice Work and which has become both my mission in life and my new career: as a healer through voice.